Maybe I'm not ready to let you go, my heart refuses to give you up. It keeps telling me to wait just a little longer and maybe...just maybe you'll feel the same. I guess you could call me crazy, or stupid, but I can't change the way I feel. You're just amazing.

Oh I watched it all fall down
I saw your face in the crowd
I saw the tears flowing from your eyes
I saw the fire in the sky
And we had no reason why
I asked will we ever be the same
You said to me

The spirit lives on,
Long after life, long after death
Has crumbled to the ground
The spirit lives on,
Long after life, long after death
They will always be around
Because the spirit lives on

I heard about the cross
How they thought all was lost
And how your friends trembled in their fear
And I heard about the nails
And the crown upon your head
And I know they thought you’d never rise again
But I can hear you say

I will live on
Long after life, long after death
Has crumbled to the ground
I will live on
Long after life, long after death
I will always be around
Oh I will live on

That song means so much to me. The highlighted words are my favorite part. To hear Jesus 
telling me that He will live on brings me strength in the hardest of times. It's just
awesome to know that not even death could overcome Him. Sometimes I just need to trust Him 
more. He always calms the storm in me when I let Him. My brother's surgery went great
for everybody who knew about it. He actually went to the game last night, even though he
did need to stay home and rest. But, he did have really greta seats, lol. Please pray that
his eyes will heal correctly. I also have an unspoken for him, please just pray he will
let God have control of his life right now and follow God's will for him. I love him so 
much. Classes aren't too bad right now. Speech isn't horrible like I thought it would
be. It is actually very bearable. I finally got my grades for last semester, wow, I
was very suprised. Somebody had to have forged those because I know I didn't do that good.
Anways, speaking of speech, I have it in a few. Everybody have a really amazing day.
Enjoy the beauty of the snow.
Love Rebekah
 To my best friend, thanks so much for just being there and calling. You are
such an encouragement to me, you don't even know. Love you Courtney!!!!!

Currently Listening Space in Between Us By Building 429 see related

Bout time I updated I think. I'm back at college now and things are starting to smooth out. I have a heavy class load this semester and have been sorta stressed about it for a little while now. But, I know that God will help me through if I let Him. My mommy came up today and spent the day with me. That was so wonderful. We ate at Applebees, which is my fav, and I bought her a present from Crackerbarrel, and only paid 32 cents for it.(They gave me a gift card for Christmas) Then we went to Walmrt and got me some food, yum, and came back and watched the basketball games. She always brings me good stuff too. She bought me this actual little Gingerbread house. It is from Bath and Body Works and is the Tootie Dulci house they sold at Christmas time. It is like the size of a teddy bear. It is sooo pretty. It has pink and white frosting and pink sprinkles on it. It is very edible but I think I'll admire it for a while before I devour it. Had a good rest of my break at home. It was hard to come back, I struggled with that the whole break. But, it didn't get the best of me. God lead me back here and thankfully by Tuesday night on the way back I surrendered to His call to come back here. Things are gonna be hard this semester, many lessons to learn and tests to take, but nothing I can't handle if I trust God and surrender to His will everyday. One sad thing though is that I think I lost a friend. I'm not really sure what happened, but, I'm praying for them and hope to hear from them soon. Lots of beautiful snow fell today. God blessed us with a winter wonderland. He's so amazing. Everyone have a really great rest of the weekend.

Love Rebekah

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So many feelings that I don't know how to put into words. I've been so upset and cried so much today that I've attained numbness and don't feel anything at this point. I guess that only frustrates me more. I just don't know right now. This post is kinda depressing to read I bet, sorry. I really wanted to post what I felt, and this is it. I know God is good and He's there through it all, but the fire He's taking me through right now is one of the most painful ones yet. I just don't know if I'll make it this time. I guess just pray guys. That's all I've been able to do lately. I've just been in constant prayer for strength through this. Pray that I'll make it.